I told you(my reader)) that before this post I was in Vitebsk, it was a short trip - you can look in my previous post… Now I moved to Minsk. And even write this text here.
Maybe it’s possible to say - New Trip started. But with long term plans, like a changing life, changing habits, escaping from the room(from conditional circumstances). I felt so stuck - cannot find job in local city, repeated playbacks of the memory, feels like you not rule you life, just a body, you know all and all know you, “you must be here and make this”,“nothing possible to change”. Oh really, do not wanna to speak about it, because it about feelings, “who right who not right”, “what is truth” - you know.
Aaaaaannd, I am in Minsk. Now only temporary.
First thoughts very obvious, a clear beauty country(I mean all things are cute, made with care, all interactions are polite) but it is not only - it is an different culture and country for me. I do not want to fall in politics and religion but trying to compare with my country: here many different churches(in Russia mainly Orthodox church), more better design of urban (I not mean a technology, just feelings).
Sure, it is not correct to compare neighborhoods and it is a little bit rude, like a speaking about family sons, for example(USSR is a parent, and post-union countries are sons, daughters), but I speak about it like a consumer, or user, not about flags.
Not a truth I mean, but opinion of just a human who moved to work and live.
Heh, for me it is a pleasure to see familiar symbols : Lenin, stars, books, working peoples…
Also I was in factory and they showed movie about this factory. It started in the union time, - 60th, 70th, 90th(collapsing of union), 00th. In 90s in this movie was mans with security, “security companies(firms)” - this strong guys with phones and leather jackets, you know, I felt strange feelings, because I have controversial thoughts about 90th, and not trying to say something - but just design, maybe because I grew up on movies like a “Жмурки” and it is reason why I am speaking guys in jackets as I speak. And with this thoughts in metro I had read about Dzerzhinsky, ye it is also really sounds creepy - serial killers, red terror, destroying churches but it was in 1914 after 300 years of slavery(krepostnichestvo) when royal family just could sell body and call it “sold souls”.
Also after world war two - all world changed, and union also sure, I mean it is different worlds - before/after. With this mood I Iooked about afgan war in wiki, and now this is in the cold war category… Maybe it is starting of the union collapse? Space race, “war race”(cold war) - I mean less rich( for money sure) USSR tried to oppose to capitalism - and maybe it is reason of collapsing(deficite in mass product, contrculture against the war).
To finish with something positive, I can say after some weeks I feel better than at the start of the trip, some new hopes, maybe even sort of “believing” in the future because I can eat something, job exist, can write this post, etc. But really - so many to need, and all it in my head: food, cards, what if I lost the job? Can I pay room? What if? How to improve? Relationship, documents, what about new friends? Ohhhhh - full head of headache but I am trying to solve at least a part of problems, maybe even i trying to find compromises, speak, ask - “living the life”.
