One day, I was felt so depressed. I can be so angry for no reason. I was feeling like I just wanna die. All of the routine activities, all the problems within slowly killing my soul. I still remember the day, it was a gloomy sunday morning, the skies are grey, sometimes the rain falls down. I came to Cihideung, West Java, it such a big flower market in Bandung. I came here to accompany my mom. Ok let’s say it was a short escape from my routine. I always love flowers, so this place is suitable for me. Once there, I have a such mind blowing conversation with other visitor. At the first we talk about how to plant the flowers, and suddenly we talking what kind of flower that we love. I said that mine is Orchid. And then she ask why? Why not Rose? I said i just love how Orchids blooms, so graceful, beautiful but yet like full of sorrow. She smiled, and said it was like you, right? and I just smile and asked What make you think that it looks like me? She said, you are beautiful but your eyes telling no lie, I see your sorrow and scars inside. I keep silent, She continues her words, "Neng (it Is when Sundanese calling a girl), Life was never easy, but we can learn from how plant growth. There’s always hope. Like when flowers bloom, we hope it blooming beautifully,right?so does life. You just need to make sure the composition of the media is right. You just need pour the water on it. And let the seed growing and the flowers blooming. She continues, there were always a scar in every heart, but you can heal it. It just you want to heal it or not. Once you decide to heal it, you can bloom, you are healed. Forgive yourself, that’s ok to make mistake, you just need to fix it, May you find your happiness.
After it, I kept thinking of what she said, now I were trying to heal my soul. Making a best composition to grows a happy soul.